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3:47pm - Made the blog page!

8:36am - I can't find the words to describe myself other than a mess. I am servre, I am unwell, I am messy. But within that clutter, I trip over to find it, there's a ray of sorts. That ray has given me slight hope, a reason of sorts.
My dear, you mean so much to me. You came to me at one of my worst times, you have seen me at terrible points, and yet you choose to stay. You still seem to love me.
I don't understand, and despite what you say my brain will always find ways to think otherwise. I try to focus on just what you say, and not what my brain runs off with and makes up. It is hard to tell since we mostly speak with text, easy to lie like that, and my trust issues will focus on that fact, but despite so many parts of my head making up things to scare me, I still love you above all else.
I don't know what on earth you see in me, when you confessed I was confused, we didn't speak much, or we did and my memory is also lying to me, or it's because I'm aromantic and I don't get this all to well.
Either way, I will never get you. You confuse me, like all other things divine, I don't understand, but I still stay in complete awe.

9:57pm - PLAYING SPLATOON AGAIN FINALLY ENJOYING IT AGAIN THE BREAK WAS SO WORTH IT I SALMON RUN I LOVE MY INKBRUSH YAY

11:46pm - Going through more And One songs, finished Tanzomat and now listening to all of Flop! From Tanzomat, new ones I liked were Save the Hate, Shining Star, and Sex Drive, though all together Playing Dead is still my top favourite on the whole album, which is the song I listened to before giving the entire album a shot. But I am starting to like Angel Eyes a lot more after giving it another listen, still below Playing Dead for me, just I like it as a song more now. I was so tired just a bit ago but now I'm wide awake doing this lmao.

11:19am - Forgot to update from last time, I listened to Flop! afterwards, and De Mitte is defenitly a new favourite for me. Still below Loser, that song is a sound embodyemnt of myself, but De Mitte isn't far behind. Now at this point the And One brainrot is taking me over I need to become these songs its crazy. Also happy pride month I lost to Overloader again while playing Side Order after doing VERY damn well but either way I have no the right to call Order homophobic damn that thing.